It's been a hard week. Part of it is tied to my previous post; I'm aware of destructive thought patterns and I'm trying to figure where they come from, which is essentially trying to identify my blind spots visually. The absurdity amuses me briefly.
My first fund raiser is tomorrow. My friend Barbara Morrison has offered to do a series of concerts to help me raise money. Jack Maeby, who runs the band Little Faith, has offered to do something similar.
Instead of being grateful that I have friends like this, I'm worried about how many people are going to show up tomorrow and about whatever else might go wrong. I'm more convicted than ever that I need to get objective third party feedback on how I see things. I know that this is a good thing, yet I'm reminded of a quote by C.S. Lewis:
"What do people mean when they say, 'I am not afraid of God because I know He is good'? Have they never even been to a dentist?
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